Love your enemy

When the opportunity presents itself for you to defeat your enemy, that is the time which you must not do it.
There will come a time, in many instances,
when the person who hates you most,
the person who has misused you most,
the person who has gossiped about you most,
the person who has spread false rumors about you most,
there will come a time when you will have an opportunity to defeat that person.

It might be in terms of a recommendation for a job; it might be in terms of helping that person to make some move in life.
That’s the time you must do it.
That is the meaning of love.
 In the final analysis, love is not this sentimental something that we talk about.
It’s not merely an emotional something.
Love is creative, understanding goodwill for all men.
It is the refusal to defeat any individual.
When you rise to the level of love, of its great beauty and power, you seek only to defeat evil systems.
Individuals who happen to be caught up in that system, you love, but you seek to defeat the system.

 Martin Luther King, Jr.,1957

"Some sensations … take up all the extent of the mind like a fog, don’t let us think, don’t let us act, don’t let us live clearly.”

– Fernando Pessoa

What is love? To take another persons best interests as part of your own (best interests). What is the best interest? objectively thats hard to answer, because the road to hell is paved with good intentions. So we really have to look at the question from different angles until we are sure. sometimes the answer breaks the heart. but maybe you just haven‘t looked far enough. ironically love itself is the binocular.

re-relocate

Everything falls
back into
place

re-relocate

"Fear not, little flock, for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom." (Luke 12:32)

change is naturally invariable

and recognising the unwavering essence of your soul is a precious anchor to find

Merciless mercy

Heart's cracking. Unbearable pain. Another crack. Source pulling. The best is yet to come.
Natural law unleashed, no more ignored. The you you knew, torn wide open. Force across your rip cage. Callous tiger claws across your chest. Leaking heart, thick blood. Blank slate. Paranoia.
Fire across the rose beds. The gardener left. Ripped pieces of old stories. Invisible process.
Feeling like loosing a limb. Purification. Withdrawals, the healthy excruciating, the merciless mercy.
Remorseless tsunamis wiping out finest shores, coming in, and then another, and then another. The fisher boats are bursting. No more fish. No more dancing in the harbour. Dead towns. How to? How to? Can I undo this? The bomb blasts at inception. Too deep down. The inception is indestructible. Cryptonite burning three hundred feet down. Can't tear it out. Stuck. Brain won't react. Note to self: Consider this trigger pulled. No gain in closed eyes against burning sun.

Tie me to the bed, mind possessions. Won't eat for a while, stuff it in. The lights go out exactly when it's time to sleep. Exercise hour. The officer and his drills, no mercy, mindful coercion. Counter intuitive things, to be done. Tie me to the bed, lock the room, keep the drugs out. Let me come back to my senses. Fried brains, needing to rest. Beneath me my own path, my own stones. Pulling me back into my body. Air prickling alveoli. This girl's surviving.

Suddenly: an opening. Fate, freshly locked. Millisecond collisions in the heavens, thunder, somewhere far, not too far.  He doesn't know yet. You're out there. I can feel it. You'll embrace me with your big arms. You'll erase the last bit of doubt in my heart that you exist. You. You're talking to me, unknown. Sparks. Excitement. Washed away by pain again, for now.When, where? Unknown. You. I'm here, mending. For you. For us. Under the force of the merciless mercy of the universe. Until I have accepted the eruption of my world. Bleeding it all out. I can swim.

Treat every second with great enthusiasm, with great care. The Now needs to be experienced in every fibre. Sense it fully, you're here, not there. You are here. Train your heart like a dog to know the moment. Train your thoughts to stay in the moment. The Now is your safe space now and forever.

I don't know if my openness is a coping mechanism, part of a disease or if its just who I intrinsically am. Maybe it's all. Zero resistance. Surrender.

Brainblast complexity

The sincere approach to life is accepting its complexity. If you allow it you'll get a taste. It comes in layer after layer, ever changing, once you see the next layer, the first will have changed. You're gonna step into different dimensions. Meet different versions of yourself. The laws of this universe work on every level. Microcosmos in Macrocosmos. Spiral in, spiral put, spiral further. Break the chains, lock the chains, train the muscles, go deeper, get lost, come back. What's good, what's bad? What do you want? What do you want to cultivate? Nothing has to be what it seems. It could have a deeper meaning. It could be the law of destruction at work, for whatever purpose. It could be meaningless at some stage. Life is not just beautiful. It isn't supposed to be. It contains the most debilitating pain anyone could ever think of. Life and death are a miracle.
Allow them to coexist. Life's gonna hurt more that way. But it's also gonna be a thousand times more fulfilling. Don't lie to yourself. Your soul knows exactly how complex life is.

supercollider

Super collider
Dust in a moment
Particles scatter
Parting from the soup

Swimming upstream
Before the heavens crack open
Thin pixelations
Coming out from the dust

In a blue light
In a green light
In a half light
In a work light

In a B-spin
Flip flopping
In a pulse wave
Outstepping

To put the shadows back into
The boxes

I am open
I am welcome
For a fraction
Of a second

I have jettisoned my illusions
I have dislodged my depressions

I put the shadows back into
The boxes

I see angels
praying under
the balconies

Supercollider - by Radiohead