Conversation

The clouded moon sends down his lactic light across the stone wall. The whole city stretches far out, the country borders blurred in night fog. Sheet lightning shrugs across the flanks of the mountain. The tea is still warm. The crickets chirr in tune with the crackling of the bonfire. Psychedelic tunes gently vibrating through the forest.
'Rising into love. It's different than falling in love. It's an organic process, it makes a shift in consciousness. It burns itself into the being as a deep mark. It changes ways, is a catalyst for feeling alive and leads down the roots to who you are and what is most important to you in life. You both can just see each other. That's mind-blowing.  You can only thrive in it by constantly rising and that's what your partner has to do at the same time, even when apart. You cannot allow cowardice in love, you got to be brave. Going within and learning all about what's there. Mastering to surf on the inner waves and intuition. Giving up control completely and then taking it back, independently. That has to happen. We're always evolving. It's our nature. A love that can't evolve is stagnant and no love. Love spreads its endless fire through the deepest knots of your soul over and over again over a long period of time. I don't identify with consuming people, that's superficial. Once you have a connection, a real one, it is permanent, even when lays dormant for some time. Soulmates can always collide again, they have their twin universe. Because you're made of the same material. It's always gonna be there.'
Hammocks are like cradles. The slow rocking from side to side, the night sky through the leaves of the forest ceiling, and the crickets hum a lullaby.

Out there

his presence entered the room as if he himself was there

while physically
he was thousands of miles away
in the land of deserts

and
I'm out there too

Armour

Like a soldier

Where is the good world - inside or outside

I found my armour :  e g o

ego, you're just a tool in this world
when I don't need you anymore, you'll dissolve as self breathes
but right now
- as long as he is not there physically -
you protect .

and deep down, deep down, there's something else that protects. you just have to dare to look at it.

A paragon of wisdom

"It's impossible to respect yourself until you grow teeth, and if you grow teeth you realise you're somewhat dangerous, or somewhat seriously dangerous. (...)

It's necessary for people to integrate their shadow and that is a terrible thing for people to attempt (...)

It's a matter of facing the thing you least want to face."

(J.B. Peterson)

Wait and see.
Wait to see.

to all

drop the persona

be true

forget the fakeness, get it out of your system

"Time to go into the dark
where the night has eyes to recognize its own.

There you can be sure you are not beyond love
The dark will be your womb tonight
The night will give you a horizon further than you can see

You must learn one thing
The world was made to be free in 

Give up all the other worlds except the one to which you belong
Sometimes it takes darkness
and the sweet confinement of your aloneness
to learn anything
or anyone
that does not bring you alive
 is too small for you."

 David Whyte

Dawn

new dawn
sun rays came over the hills and outpoured themselves through the valley
over and through the plants, the trees
we became one in the night

plants are probably the only living beings on earth who are pure
maybe that's why they have healing power

in my prayer i found
i found the switch
and here it is

it was like my soul spread its wings
fuelled by the sun

the bird
is free

he said

don't say sorry

i prohibit you to say sorry, you mustn't say the word ever again
while dancing with me
just relax
and enjoy

he said

and i moved into it

his lead.

You can't protect people. You can only make them strong.
You can't heal people. You can only love them.

Learn the opposite

Learn how to be not agreeable sometimes.
Learn how to be not conscientious sometimes, how to let go.
Learn how to say NO
Learn how to not justify yourself the whole time.

Sounds that make me incredibly peaceful