About left behind, not being able to keep up, looking back, being ahead wishing we would still be on the same page.

I can't expect people to be like me or to keep up with my growth and fall, because everyone has his own path and we will always be different in what we learn, also in our talents. But sometimes you realize that you are disappointed all the time. You love them, but you are still alone. They won't show you the loyalty and openness you CRAVE for. You are not on the same page anymore. You have become stronger than your friend, in your own way. And it could be that your friend has become stronger than you in another way, but you don't see it. Although your sympathy hasn't changed, you know that you two won't be able to give each other what you really need. And that just makes me sad.

I'm not satisfied with a friendship when I somehow really love this person but can't get through, can't get the 100% friendship I dream of. It's mean to expect love ones to fulfill that, and I cherish them anyway! But though...So good to see that I'm lacking something. That gives me the precious ability of falling in love at once with people in whom I see what I search for. And I also appreciate the real friends that I won't forego anymore, not for anything.